Friday, 18 May 2012

Issues, and Overflow...

I'm Skipping school today (with parental permission) as i am packing/getting ready for Overflow Youth Convention in Waterloo. I'm somewhat excited, as i know I'll have lots of fun, but on the other hand i don't want to go. In the past year our church has been going through a lot of changes, such as pastors, and ways we do things. And the youth were not happy about this. I didn't know anything about their issues with the church until i talked to my like only friend at church, Bella. She is our pastor's daughter, and probably the only one i cna talk to at church cause i have no friends at church except for adults. Anyways, i'm none too happy that pretty much everyone in the youth group is at odds, and it's me and Bella against the rest. So we are only getting 3 rooms, 1 for all the boys, and 2 for the girls. which sucks, cause if they all don't wanna be in one room, they will have to share with me and Bella and our girl leader. And i don't think i'll feel comfortable worshiping with everyone cause i just don't feel comfortable around them! Like if i'm not comfortable, i ain't doing anything.

So what I'd rather be doing this weekend is going to the ranch and helping out, they probably give me a better Christian environment than the kids at my youth group. I would've been riding Gizmo :) but not, im stuck tolerating people i disprove of.

Well trying to pack my suitcase right now, i have no clue what to bring because the weather is being wacky ... it's supposed to be hot today, but its pretty chilly... its 13* C right now, and its supposed to be a high of 21*C, but there's no sun out right now. The weekend is supposed to be pretty hot when i checked the weather reports : Saturday is supposed to be a high of 29*C, and Sunday is supposed to be roughly the same. I'll probably pack short shorts (not the slutty variety :P ) and some t-shirts cause you can never go wrong with those, and a couple of different thickness of sweaters. I will most likely have the largest suitcase, as i have issues with packing cause i always pack for ANYTHING. like if something happens i will be prepared. I have always been that way with packing. I can't take just enough, cause i always need something that i forgot if i do that. Anyway, i got to get back to work, so i'll give you an overview of the weekend on monday ! HAPPY LONG WEEKEND EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, 17 May 2012


I think I'm officially addicted to walking. I walk to school, which is 30mins, and back which is somehow 40 mins ... funny.  and then i take my younger dog, misha, for an hour walk. I walk pretty fast and its just a bit over 3 km/h to my school and i walk that twice a day usually. So i took my dog for a lovely stroll, and found this path through a tiny forest and it is lovely at sunset (when i walk usually). so yah , here's one of the pictures i took this afternoon :)

Wednesday, 16 May 2012

Random stuff as i am bored :P

So this weekend is Overflow! I'm so excited ! but i'm missing out of going to the ranch this weekend because of it so I'm upset. I really Really REALLY wanna go to the ranch and see Gizzie :) anywho just found this pic that is so funny :)

OH YOU KNOW YOU SANG IT > :P im so bored and tired right now it's kinda funny :P

Well in english today at school, i was acting like a total crazy, and totally bugging my friend Elissa, (sorry bro) :P, and flirting with the guy who sits beside me, and i think i like him ;) tell you guys about that another time.

AND THEN: i saw this Picture and i totally agree with it. Everyone always tells me my dreams aren't gonna happen. I FREAKEN LOVE LOVE Lov e LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOOVVVVEEEE HORSES. I just can't get enough of them. I like can't get enough of them. My room has quite a few horse posters, and horse paintings that I've done...

I would love to be a perfessional horse groom, or barn manager, or just whatever job i can get around horses. I actually volunteer alot of my time to either help my friend doing her horses braids, (im not braiding but now i can do a wicked tail braid ;) and I'm trying to perfect my mane braids as well. She is also teaching me some things in return, as she lets me photograph her riding lessons, and teaches me some english things as i was originally taught western riding by Rocky Ridge Ranch where i volunteer.
(Link to RRR -

But yah, my mom says don't go for the groom/braider jobs because they will make you wake up early, and probably not that good of paycheck yada yada, but If I'm happy where I'm working, DOES IT REALLY MATTER?!? but yah :)  just wanted to say that :)

LIVE BY THIS MOTTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, 10 May 2012

Sorry about all the ranting :S

Yah, it seems i like to rant a lot on this blog. So if you don't like it, go check out my pictures on my other blog, .

So I think i might start having to bring a camera with my on my morning walks to school, because when i walk to school at 7:25 almost every morning now, there is dew, and the sun will shine and it highlights the grass quite nicely :) I'm just to chicken to not care what other people think so i probably won't ;).

any-who I've had a lot of tests this week, Math, French, and English so I'm quite anxious to get my marks back :) i know i did well on English, but math and french i'm kinda of worried. So my mom wouldn't let me go to the barn with my friend, so i couldn't take any photos, and i couldn't go tonight because it is her mother's B-day ! so yah, i'm probably going to chill tonight, read my book "city of ashes" and call it a night early or have a shower. any-who farewell ! :)

Monday, 7 May 2012

Rough weeks...

The past weeks for me have been kind of rough. I've been rude to, and been talked to rudely by many,  people. I've been paranoid about everything, snapping at my family, and just fed up with everything. This weekend i was asked twice (by my dad and sis, and by my friend) to go to see a movie with them, and i refused both. I don' t feel like doing anything, nothing really makes me smile, and everything tastes like bland rice.

Taking it out on others...

I feel bad because I don't want to hurt the people I am. I was mad at my parents, and i took it out via text messages at one of my friends. I hurt her feelings, when i wasn't even mad at her. I apologized that night, explaining the situation to her. Thank God she is a nice friend, and forgave me. The next day i texted her thanking her for being such a nice friend to me.

Then today, i was out for lunch with my friends, and we just had an assembly about the r-word: retard. My friends wouldn't decide on ANYTHING. It was so frustrating because i'm used to: okay, we are going to ------ and getting ----- and sitting --------. BUT NO! they are standing there for five minutes trying to make a decision, and I'm getting more pissed off by the second. I swear, if i hadn't kept my mouth shout and literally gone silent all lunch, i would have lost it. One other thing; i detest people asking me if i'm okay, or upset. Think about it people! I'm sorry but if you don't have ANY clue in whats got me upset, you don't know me well. It sucked because i couldn't go off and leave them, because i couldn't of anyone else to go and spontaneously go and have lunch with, in the middle of lunch.

I was so afraid of being embarrassed i stayed there, but i physically showed i was pissed off, by being quiet and terse with my answers to their questions.

SO Many Things on My weeeeee lil' mind...
It's funny, they always say, don't judge a book by its cover. So people, don't judge me because lately i have been cranky, paranoid, anxious and probably everything included in depression. I have a lot of unspoken responsibility at home. My mother is so busy at work to pay for the bills, because her and dad don't share that responsibility. So its not my fault. SO while my mother is at work, there is no one to keep the house clean, unless we are expecting visitors (which means a mass 'quick clean' by me and mom.) but our house is pretty messy if you ask me. It's mostly clutter, and papers, and stuff we don't need.

 Any-who, there are not enough hours for all the things i KNOW i need to do. I have my school work first of all to do. Then i have to  try and make sure the kitchen is clean. then make sure the dogs are happy, and try to keep tidy the front entrance and the rest of the house. And then if i have to, i might do the dog poo in the backyard, or walk the dogs. Then their is piano to practice, otherwise my piano teacher and my mother will be not impressed because piano lessons, and the drive to Oakville are expensive. Then i like to volunteer at Rocky Ridge Ranch, but i need money to pay for paints/ horse stuff/ or other things i need/want, so i sometimes ill go and work at my mom's work in the office and do filing or whatever, and get paid for it so i can pay my phone bill. And then there's laundry and many other things.

^ i could probably write a book on the things i know i need to do to help my mother out. (as the other two in my house are somewhat incapable.) people think I'm 'over emphasizing' or whatever, but place yourself in my shoes. Try to think about what i think about on a daily basis.

AND THEN - there's me trying to lose a few pounds so that maybe, i might feel a little bit less self conscious. It might help now in a horrible way that food doesn't look appetizing or whatever. (no I'm not going and starving myself, ill just eat less food than i usually do, which was quite a bit in the first place)
But I've been trying to loose this horrible muffin top for FOREVER. I'll just try to stay out of the cupboard and cut down my portions. And instead of eating sweet candy all the time, I'll try to eat very sweet fruits, because to me they give you the same sugar-rush. Only candy makes you feel full, but fruit is very light compared to candy.

Well I'm almost of of things to rant about. Sorry about that People! I'm just frustrated with my state right now, so bear with me... ttyl.

Thursday, 3 May 2012

Crazy Construction at the Craig's

Concrete Driveway Removal = Earthquake:

So, our neighbors were deciding to to do their driveways, and we joined in and decided we were going to get ours done too. But, compared to our neighbors, our old driveway was concrete, while theirs was asphalt. They also got their front and back walkways done, while our whole front walkway was removed, and our side walkway also. 
Any-who......... They arrived the first morning at 7am!!! and to the displeasure of our neighbors, THEY STARTED JACK-HAMMERING THE END OF OUR DRIVEWAY! after they did a little section of one of the (probably) 2m by 2m concrete slabs, they use a bob-cat, and lift it up. Then they DROP IT. Our whole house vibrated, and kinda shook. (later on we apologized to our next door neighbor, because she has younger children and we probably woke them up). They did this for the whole driveway. It was quite interesting. By the time i left they had ripped up the whole driveway, and it wasn't even 8am. 

So, how do we get into/out of our house?!?!?!:

The next day our front patio was still setting (concrete), so we couldn't walk on it. Before we even got the chance to leave the house, they start pouring the side walkway. WHICH MEANS - we were kinda trapped in our home, because we have no door in the garage, therefore trapped !. So we called our neighbor behind us, which my little sister is friends with, and we asked if we could jump the fence in-between us. (it is like a 3ft fence). So being a wonderful neighbors, they put a step stool on their side and we did the same, so that my mother wouldn't wipe out. (she used to have MS, but now barely has any symptoms, so she doesn't have great balance anymore.) It was kinda funny cause it felt like we were doing a secret mission for the next couple of days. :

OVERALL: the front is looking even better than it did before, which is nice. My mom, being an amazing landscaper, will make it look even better with some potted plants, and her habiscus plants that are already in the front garden. The only thing is we might take out the giant spruce tree right next to the driveway, because when they put in the concrete French curbing for our driveway, they had to kill a couple pretty big roots. I will put a couple photos up when its done!

Now to something else.....
My little sister Krista and my mom just left to go to a G.E.M.S. night for mother's day. I have  NO CLUE what to make my mother. (she likes gifts made by us). I was thinking a painting, but I don't really know what I'd paint. She loves flowers, but i don't know which our i would paint. She loves this type of flower in Australia, its purple, but i personally think its quite Ugly ... maybe a water lily, or something peaceful to hang in her office, amidst the chaos. :P

Oh well, ill figure that out later :P for now, im going to take a nice nap because im really tired even though i took the day off school. Toodaloo!

I got my supplies from Greenhawk equestrian supplies! i got a good looking dandy brush (not as firm as i would have liked it, but i can always get a better one) a body brush, braiding hook, tonnes of tiny braiding elastics, braiding comb, and curry comb. So excited ! I showed my horse friend, Emma, and she loved it! well that's all for now ! thanks for all the views on my blogs! i appreciate it, and feel free to comment !